Shelby and I were driving home from dinner tonight listening to music when this song came on and this blog just popped in my mind.
Give Your Heart A Break – Demi Lovato
For some reason, what came to mind, isn’t exactly what the song is about, I interpreted something a bit different this time.
Have you ever sat down at before bed and reflected on your day? Thought about the way you handled things, what events happened, and things you will change tomorrow? Whenever my anxiety kicks in, that is usually when I do most of my reflecting. I’m not getting into details about it but long story short, I’m thinking that I will have to go back on my other pill.
Stop taking your days for granted. Too many times I feel that we live our day and without second thought, just go to sleep. Not thinking about the possibility you might not wake up or someone you love might not wake up. I’m not saying that you need to live in constant fear of your life ending, but you should use the thought at momentum to do things in your life. I’ll elaborate.
If you died tomorrow- would you be happy with your life? Could you smile and say that you have done all that you have wanted to do up to this point in your life? Have you gotten the tattoo you have always wanted? Have you fallen in love with someone? Have you done something that truly scares you?
My answer? No. I know a lot of people would answer yes, and think that they were content with they have accomplished, but I hold myself a lot higher. I know there is always more that I can do to be happy. There are more people I can love, there are more chances I can take, and there are longer runs I can run. There is so much more that I could do and I know it. I still want a tattoo, I want to travel, I want to experience more while I am young. Too many times I see myself being held back. And what is holding me back? Myself. I am so hard on myself all the time. I need to give myself a break. I always push myself to my limits and tell myself I need to back off when I reach them.
I just think that we all believe we have more time than we actually have. We have time to wait around. But we don’t. Whatever you are waiting for… stop waiting for it. Make it happen. Push yourself to go skydiving. Find yourself a good tattoo parlor. Drink one too many beers. Fall in love. Go on a long hike and don’t be scared when you see a snake. Stop rushing through everything. Fears are just built up anxieties of the unknown lingering in your head. They aren’t real; you just let them reside in your head. I’ve run into a couple spiders lately, I killed them myself. I promised myself next weekend I am getting that tattoo. I heard many different opinions on cruises but I am going to go on one and make the decision on them for myself. I’m tired of living my life in fear that someone will disapprove of my decisions or judge me.
So from here on out I plan on giving my heart a break. I am going to break away from the stress of society and individuals who try to Influence me. Being happy is my first priority. The things I want to do, I am going to do them. The people I love, I’m going to tell them. And the fears that I have, I am going to overcome them. I’m not promised tomorrow and neither are you. THIS is why I enjoy reflecting on my days. This is why I analyze situations and think about better ways to handle them. No matter what, I want to go to sleep every night with a smile on my face and a heart full of happiness. I know that I am doing what I can to live a happy life. I haven’t done everything I want in life but I am surely going to get there.
Here is to no more living in fear.
Here is to finally becoming the person you want to be.
Here is to living the life that will make you the HAPPIEST.