Have you ever just wished for something so badly... felt like you have tried/keep trying so hard, and you just keep coming short?
What about feeling like you will never make it toward your goal and your dreams?
Well don't worry because as crazy as this may seem, you are not alone. I hands on know what this feels like. For almost a year now I have been struggling with making healthy decisions. Should I do this.... or go to the gym? Should I eat this.... or a handful or m&m's?
It's actually very hard for me to admit this right now, because I hate admitting it. But hey- good news again, the first step is always admitting to yourself something has changed. So after you admit it to yourself that something is different, you can address this issue.
It is going to be an easy fix, because I know what I have to do. I know how to exercise. I know how to be positive. I know how to eat healthy. I know what needs to be done... So why can't I just do it?
As NIKE tells us.... JUST DO IT. And it's funny because while I was typing this, I was about to type "but it just isn't that easy." But then I thought again... Well... maybe it is that easy. And guess what, I came to a conclusion.
I love working out. I believe that there is no greater high in this world than a hard workout. So why don't I try to feel this high everyday? I used to go to the gym everyday- twice a day. Why did it stop? Well, I know why it stopped..
When my grandma passed, I got this idea in my head that life is too freaking short.. So my new thought process was... "If you died tomorrow- would you be happy with the unhappiness that you have suffered and brought upon yourself during your time here on earth?" And by writing this it clicked. My thought process used to be "eat the doughnut, you will regret not eating it. You are 18 years old, it isn't going to make you fat."
But the thing is.... I don't really want the doughnut. I know I don't. I like being healthy. I like working towards my goal. I like being able to say NO when being asked if I want seconds, or dessert. I like being able to hold my head high and say "I can't, I have to go to the gym." And like I just said, writing this out made me realize this...
I know what I want, and I know what I need to get there. And I am done letting these road blocks get in the way. I may have said this before, but I haven't seen it as clear as I do right now.
I am hungry for victory, so just watch me win.