Now, let’s get this straight—I don’t understand my life. I don’t understand why I make the same mistakes, why bad things happen, or why I still haven’t won the lottery. I mean, my luck is probably worse than Clark Griswold’s luck. But nonetheless, I still don’t understand it…although, that doesn’t stop me from loving my life. And this is why…
It is unique
It is MY STORY. My story is unlike anyone else’s. When I make mistakes, it shows that I am learning. When I overcome an obstacle, it shows that I am putting in effort. My mold is different than your mold, and that is what makes your life special.
It makes me happy
I am happy with who I am. Sometimes, I may play the pity card…Rachel knows all about this. A few days ago, I sent her a long text about how I felt like just breaking down. I told her that the only thing I wanted her to respond with was ‘I love you’. What did she do? She read my text and responded with ‘I love you’. I didn’t want her to tell me, “things will get better,” or “you’re trying the best you can.” I didn’t want a pep talk and I didn’t want a measly “I am so sorry you feel this way!” I simply just wanted someone to listen to me. Sometimes when I feel a certain way, I just want to get it off my chest and move on. But these times when I feel anxious make me really appreciate the times that I feel empowered and happy. Overall, I am happy, but these mixed emotions also remind me that I am human.
It teaches me something new everyday
Oh boy, this is one of the realest statements out there. I am constantly learning. Do I always absorb this information? Well... no. But that is okay because I am sure I am going to make the same mistake again, so sooner or later I am going to learn something! One of my favorite lessons to learn is how to handle a situation. Every social situation is different because every person you interact with is different, so we are constantly put in situations where we are learning something new-- how to handle the situation, what to say, when to say it. I guess this is where we start to learn a sense of maturity, when we go through hard times.
...There is always something new everyday
There is always something new going on in the life of Kylie that is for sure. Whether it is a new semester starting or just a busy weekend at work, there is always something. I am a very on-the-go kind of person and I like to stay busy… so that is exactly what my life is—BUSY.
I notice the little things
I like the little details. I like doing little things that show people that I care. To me, the little things add up to be big things. Doing 100 little things takes a lot more effort than doing one big thing… it is all about showing someone that they are worth it. As I have mentioned before, I am an empath, I feed off the energy of others. So I spend a lot of time putting effort into my relationships because I want the people around me to be happy. Having someone simply walk out of his or her way to say hello to me can make me smile, because I know there was effort. It truly doesn’t take much to make me happy/please me… I see the importance of little gestures, and that is why I can be so happy all the time, I find my own happiness :)
I am nowhere near perfect and I sure as hell will never be, but I think that is what makes me love my life so much. I have learned to embrace many of my imperfections and accept the fact that I am, me. I am so blessed to be me because I have the best life I could possibly ask for.