you can be busy being stressed or you can be busy being blessed.
Today was a tough day for me. I was very anxious. Let’s run through my day up until I started feeling the anxiety.
I woke up next to my two best friends, Rach and Nate. We all went to the gym together, and I got a great back workout in with Rach. We did a bunch of handstand work (I even began to accomplish some things that I never thought I would be able to accomplish). I also got in a good abs workout in; I am really feeling it right now.
We also got a really good laugh in when I face planted after one of my handstands… that is when we called it quits hahaha.
So after the gym, I made a wonderful breakfast for everyone and packed all my veggies and fruits for school. I did my hair, got to spend time with my parents and dogs, and I also got to clean up my room a little bit.
When I got to school, I got a little nervous. I was getting a test back today that basically decided if I needed to take the final or not. Turns out I got a B on that exam, which puts me at a B for the semester, which made me SUPER happy!
ONE CLASS DOWN, 4 TO GO!
So I got to leave class early, then I went to study for my finals. I got some one on one time with one of my professors today, which helped TREMENDOUSLY. I feel so ready for that exam!
So where in this picture did I have time to be anxious? Why did I feel anxious? I talked to my lovely ladies (Shelby, Sami, Dani, and Rach), and they all gave me different advice. I also talked to my parents, and they gave me different advice as well. Getting so much input from others really helps me realize that I have so many good people in my life. I am so ridiculously thankful for the amount of support and love that I have.
So why do I spend time thinking about what I don’t have? I should be so happy that I don’t have time to worry about the stresses in my life. God is putting me through this challenging situation so I can prove to myself that I AM strong enough. I AM worth it. And guess what? I WILL come out stronger than ever after. Just because I have an off day mentally, does not mean anything. I still had an amazing day.
I went grocery shopping, got some more veggies, fruits, and Luna bars for the week, I went on a drive with Rachel, finished my laundry, gave my dad a Mohawk, and still had time to sit down, reflect on my day, and FaceTime Dani.
It is the little things in life that add up to the big things. These little things are what give my life meaning. I look forward to making the most out of the days to come, and I will be filling my head with positive thoughts. My life is not perfect, nor am I perfect. But my life does not have to be perfect for it to be wonderful. The imperfections in my life are what make it so wonderful too, funny how that works out.
I am thankful for the difficult days that I have because it helps me truly enjoy the easy-going side of life. It helps me truly cherish the good memories that come my way. We all fall, we all hurt, and we all get anxious. But we also need to remember that these emotions are what make us human. We feel all emotions, and to me that is beautiful.
Every. Damn. Day. There is a positive, some days you just need to dig a little deeper for it.
So when I wake up tomorrow, I have a choice. I am let today define me or I can move on and have a fantastic day.
I think I know what I will choose.