One of my biggest personality flaws is not being able to get out of my own head, and this goes for anything…especially things I’m not good at. Today, the strength piece to the workout was snatches. When I looked up the workout yesterday, I had already gotten in my own head. I’ve never done snatches before, so I was really nervous for some reason. Although everyone has to start somewhere, I always hate being the newbie. I forced myself to go this morning because I needed to learn…I wanted to learn. I needed to come out of my comfort zone.
So we ran through our warm up. By the time we got to the point where we started going over the snatch mechanics, I was feeling a little more confident. The coaches did a great job breaking it down into small steps then slowly putting them all together. I was using a 35lb barbell and it felt easy. I mean, I have a great squat, good overhead squat, and I could easily push press this bar over my head… so I was ready, right?
I went to add 10lb bumper plates to each side and went for a test run. It wasn’t that it was too heavy, but with the first pull, I couldn’t even get up it past my hips. I just completely forgot all the mechanics that we worked on. One of the coaches saw me and gave me a cue to work with and I tried it. This time I was able to get it over my head… but I just fell on my ass (literally) and had to bail out. My coach smirked and said it was okay and to try again. For some reason, once I put those plates on the barbell, I got even more in my head. I ended up having to take them off because I just mentally couldn’t do it. I decided to just use the time to practice the mechanics some more.
But wait there’s more! That wasn’t the end of the workout. I ended up having thrusters as well as double unders. There was only 2 good things that came out of this workout… 1) I got 10 double unders in a row, which is a record for me. 2) I finished the workout. I could’ve kept going with the double unders, but I was getting so mad at myself for messing up. I even got to the point where I couldn’t get in the rhythm for any single unders. I was frustrated and no matter how many times the coaches told me to calm down and not get so upset, I couldn’t snap out of it.
So this morning at 5AM I was taught a good lesson. Even though you may not be the best, that doesn’t mean you can give up. For anyone who follows me on Facebook, noticed that Justin posted how he beat me in Trivia Crack. It was funny because he talked me into downloading it last night and I finally did…just to lose! (I am a really sore loser by the way.) The entire game, I was just texting Justin telling him I was going to delete the app all so he couldn’t beat me! I don’t like losing and I don’t like being new. I get really frustrated when I can’t get the hang of something quickly, and when I start thinking a certain way; it is hard for me to snap out of it. It doesn’t help that I don’t trust my body, I’m really stiff with a lot of movements because I am scared of getting hurt.
All in all, today I learned something new and I was put to a test to learn how to get out of my own head. I called Justin after class to tell him about my morning and I told him I needed to snap out of this mindset. He told me he would snap out of it for me (meaning he was there for me and he wanted to help). I told him this was something I needed to do, but his help was welcome. I know that I have to learn how to pick myself up on my own, but I must admit that the extra support is always nice. I’m a really lucky girl to have a man that cares so much. Hell, I’m lucky to have to great support system that I do.
It was a good first day back from a bittersweet weekend.It’s time to go make my meals for the day, study my booty off, and have a fantastic day! Next time I try, I’m going to get it. Confidence is key.