I’m finally 21, Grandma. Your little baby… finally able to drink a beer in public! The one thing that I wish I could get for my birthday is to see you, go out to a bar with you. But since I can’t, the only thing I can do is pretend.
I really want to know how you are, Grandma. I’m so glad that you are out of pain… but you suffered for so long. How do you feel now? How beautiful is it where you are? I hope that you are living comfortable and are HAPPY… that is truly all I want.
Can you see me? I try to make you proud every single day and I hope you can see that. Can you believe that I got a new job? I love it so much. I can’t believe that I am doing something within my field of study… it is almost like my life is starting to unfold. Even though you can’t stay long, I am glad you are here long enough to listen to me tell you about it. Speaking of jobs, on my 21st birthday, I went out to get dessert and a drink with Jensy and the girls. We were talking about the first time that I met them… and I told them you used to drive me to their house because I was still 15. Not many people can say that their grandma used to be so involved in their life, and I am so blessed to be able to say that mine was.
I wish that you could hold Jase and Anthony… They are sweet, sweet babies. Kimmy is one of the cutest toddlers in the world. But no, Shelby is still not pregnant… I am still not an Auntie… She knows I am not happy about it either!!! I know that even though you won’t physically be there, you will be there when my niece/nephew is born. It will be the best day of my life thus far, and I know that you will be so beyond happy the day they are brought to life. You will always be apart of this family Grandma.
School has been going really well. I wish that I had the chance to go over to your house and study with you… like Shelby did when she was in nursing school. I am getting good grades and enjoying the information I am learning… I don’t have enough time to go through it all with you, but I promise one day I will.
I was missing you more than usual today… Therefore I needed to write you. I know that I will never see you again in my lifetime… but I don’t think I will ever understand the reason why, but this event has been life changing for me. I lost one of my best friends, one that I have literally known since birth and it is something that is hard to grasp. One day we will be reunited, but until then Grandma, it is just a ‘see you again’.
You were the most beautiful woman to step foot on this planet, because you gave me something no one else can, my mother. Thank you for giving me the most amazing mother in this world, I strive every day to make the both of you proud.
I love you.