You are a wonderful woman and you do not give yourself enough credit for how wonderful you truly are. You are always writing blogs, going out of your way, and being nice to/for everyone else, that sometimes you tend to forget about yourself. Well, not tonight. Tonight you get to focus on you.
You have done a lot of digging today and you found out a lot about yourself. Time to write it out and time to get to work.
You don’t do enough for yourself. You find it so easy to go out and spend stupid amounts of money or time on others, but you don’t give yourself the same affection. Taking yourself to get a manicure and going to see a movie is necessary at times. You are willing to treat the people around you, why aren’t you willing to treat yourself? It is so necessary to give yourself some time and love. Spend money on yourself, do something you know you will enjoy, and spend time learning more about your mind. YOU deserve the attention. If you are willing to give it to everyone else, be open and willing to give it to yourself. You can’t just keep giving because one day you will be completely drained. (I know right now you feel drained, but you aren’t. You have the strength and courage to pick yourself back up. So do it.)
You are way to mean to yourself. You have always been mean to yourself, even when you were little. You were always the kid that didn’t need punishment because you punished yourself. You think that every single mistake you make, or chance you didn’t take, is the end of the world. But it isn’t the end of the world! Everything that has happened to you in your life has set you up for where you are going. It is really hard to be happy when someone is mean to you all the time. It just comes down to you being too hard on yourself. “You’re not allowed to do this because you should be sad.” “You have to do this if you want to be happy.” GIRLFRIEND. Stop worrying about what you think ‘needs’ to be done… and just do whatever will literally make you happy!! You are so good at making other happy, you are so good at smiling, you know how to brighten up a room… START DOING IT FOR YOURSELF! Make yourself happy first. Smile at yourself. Brighten up YOUR room. You will thank yourself later.
You need to shit or get off the pot. You have a problem with overthinking. You decide that you are going to get into a certain mindset and you don’t let it go. This wouldn’t be an issue if you didn’t let these things drag on. Girl, you have to learn how to let go. Things aren’t going to stay the same forever. There will be new chapters starting as others chapters end. And you know what? They are going to end before or after you want them to. The beauty is that you don’t know. It really is true, there is beauty in the unknown. Besides... why would you want to find something out, if it is just going to hurt you? Embrace the unknown and keep concentrating on what KYLIE is doing. Don't worry about what anyone else is saying or doing... (I know this is so much easier said than done, but the more I say it, the more I think I may start to believe it).
You expect way too much from people. I’m sorry, but you do and you need to stop. You are very giving, you are very generous, and you car way too much… there is no way around it. You need to understand that your strengths are not everyone else’s strengths. One of your strong suits is feeling empathy for others… but not everyone can feel empathy. Not everyone is as compassionate as you. You must learn to not hold this against them. You see ‘weaknesses’ as faults… and they are not faults. These traits are what make up everyone around you. You will never find someone who carries every single trait that you want, and that is okay. You need to learn to love and accept them, even though they aren’t you.
You care more about what others think about you than what you think about yourself. As mama said earlier, you just need to say screw it (she used a little more explicit language… but you get the point). What matters is what YOU think. The only way that you are going to be able to be happy is to start making decisions for yourself. Starting thinking, “how is this going to affect ME?” You will feel so much relief when you start living to your standards and no one else’s. People are going to talk about you. People are going to disagree with you. People think your fitness posting is annoying, but that doesn’t stop you. People don’t like Donald Trump but that doesn’t change your opinion. People are going to think you made wrong decisions in your life, but that doesn’t change the fact that you are exactly where you need to be right now.
You are literally giving yourself the advice you want to hear from others. You want to hear it from others because if you do then it must be true because someone else said it. NEWSFLASH KYLIE! You are so freaking strong, confident, and you have the world in the palm of your hand. Your desire to change people’s lives is going to take you so far. You drive to actually be someone in life is going to make you someone in life. Your constant effort in bettering yourself and concentrating on yourself is going to put you so far ahead. You don’t realize what you really are. No one else’s opinion of you defines you. YOUR opinion of you defines you. So what is your opinion of yourself?
Kylie (n): A woman with a very strong desire to change someone’s life. A woman who is willing to set herself on fire, just to keep someone else warm. A woman who truly doesn’t understand how much she is worth. A woman who will keep putting in effort because
You have the power and desire to do absolutely anything you want in life. If you want it, you will have it… you just need to believe in yourself more. Everyone in your life knows this, and the people in your life? They are very lucky because you are going to make them so proud. You are one of a kind Ky.
So really at the end of the day, stop waiting for the right time to stop being so mean to yourself, holding your flaws against yourself, and expecting too much from others. Just love people for who they are girl, and everything will end up falling right into place. No one can do this for you, you need to do it for yourself. There isn't a day that goes by that you don't try to better yourself. Your progress has shown, just keep pushing. Push is harder than you ever have. You are so close to a break through, I just know it.
Remember: it's hard to be happy when someone is always mean to you. You are your own worst enemy girl.