My mom just showed me a beautiful video (you can see the video here). But to sum it up, it is about a mother who drove off the road and into a river. Unfortunately, the mother passed away at the scene. The crazy part is that there was an 18-month of baby girl in the car still. Before a fisherman found the car and called 9-1-1, the baby, Lily, was in the car for 13-14 hours in 30 degree weather, as well as upside down. When the paramedics got there, they had found the mother and figured that she had died at the scene and that there was no one else in the car. But wait, it gets better….
A FEW OF THE PARAMEDICS agreed that they heard a voice saying “help”… but the crazy part is that they said it was not a baby’s voice… it was the voice of a woman. I got chills when I heard this… you can put the pieces together and believe what you want to believe, but I know it was the mother.
So with saying that… my post for today goes out to my angel.
Dear Grace Belle Drauszewski,
It has been nearly 2 years since you left us. I still think about you every single day. I think about it sometimes and I still don’t think that I will ever be able to forget about you, I don’t think that your presence will ever leave me. You had such a remarkable impact on my life that I’m not sure that I will ever be able to move on. I want you to know that I am trying everything possible to make you proud.
Sometimes when I go visit grandpa, I get really sad. But don’t worry grandma- he is doing very well right now. He is finding many different ways to stay busy. But he isn’t necessarily the reason that I am sad. I usually get sad because I will sit in your seat in the kitchen and picture your little clutter in front of it. I pretend that your ‘agenda’/journal notebook is in front of me, and I write you a little “I love you grandma” in it. I remember seeing you sit there in the mornings waiting for me so we could eat our maple-frosted donuts together. I picture you sitting on your couch, with me right next to you, cuddling under your Kansas blanket. (My mom let me have that blanket btw… I like to keep it close to my chest because it would make me feel warm when I smell it…it still smells like you.) I like to picture you in the computer room playing bejeweled on Sunday mornings when I would come over... you really loved that game. I picture coming over to your house and not being able to find you, then I look out on the deck and you are in your favorite chair reading a book. I also remember all of our trips together. Those make me the happiest to think about, especially Georgia. Can you believe that they lengthened the Champions Classic to another 3 years? We would’ve had a blast at these games… It really hits home when I realize that I will never be able to experience any of these things ever, again.
I remember when we got super excited when we were watching one of the Kansas games and you went to high-five me and almost stabbed me with a fork! We don’t do high fives anymore… Shelby is in Georgia and grandpa always called us crazy for it! We have cinnamon rolls sometimes but it is hard for 2 people to eat an entire pack…. Unless Sami is with me, she helps!
Shelby is doing really, really well. She has a wonderful job on the med-surge floor, and Daniel treats her so, so well. We are all doing really well grandma, I can’t really complain. I feel very happy most of the time… but sometimes I do lose it. You were my second mother and my first angel; life is not the same without you.
You were such a strong, independent, free spirited woman and I am so proud to be able to be one of your grandbabies. I miss when you called me your grandbaby. Whenever I get into a rut I just remember that I am trying to live up to your standards grandma. I try my best every single day for you. I will never forget your grandma. I can’t wait until I can see you again grandma. Sometimes you visit me in my dreams and it makes me so happy. I truly from the bottom of my heart believe that you are there. You always were there grandma, for everything.
I love you so much Grandma, thank you for everything you have given me.
See you again,
Ky
A FEW OF THE PARAMEDICS agreed that they heard a voice saying “help”… but the crazy part is that they said it was not a baby’s voice… it was the voice of a woman. I got chills when I heard this… you can put the pieces together and believe what you want to believe, but I know it was the mother.
So with saying that… my post for today goes out to my angel.
Dear Grace Belle Drauszewski,
It has been nearly 2 years since you left us. I still think about you every single day. I think about it sometimes and I still don’t think that I will ever be able to forget about you, I don’t think that your presence will ever leave me. You had such a remarkable impact on my life that I’m not sure that I will ever be able to move on. I want you to know that I am trying everything possible to make you proud.
Sometimes when I go visit grandpa, I get really sad. But don’t worry grandma- he is doing very well right now. He is finding many different ways to stay busy. But he isn’t necessarily the reason that I am sad. I usually get sad because I will sit in your seat in the kitchen and picture your little clutter in front of it. I pretend that your ‘agenda’/journal notebook is in front of me, and I write you a little “I love you grandma” in it. I remember seeing you sit there in the mornings waiting for me so we could eat our maple-frosted donuts together. I picture you sitting on your couch, with me right next to you, cuddling under your Kansas blanket. (My mom let me have that blanket btw… I like to keep it close to my chest because it would make me feel warm when I smell it…it still smells like you.) I like to picture you in the computer room playing bejeweled on Sunday mornings when I would come over... you really loved that game. I picture coming over to your house and not being able to find you, then I look out on the deck and you are in your favorite chair reading a book. I also remember all of our trips together. Those make me the happiest to think about, especially Georgia. Can you believe that they lengthened the Champions Classic to another 3 years? We would’ve had a blast at these games… It really hits home when I realize that I will never be able to experience any of these things ever, again.
I remember when we got super excited when we were watching one of the Kansas games and you went to high-five me and almost stabbed me with a fork! We don’t do high fives anymore… Shelby is in Georgia and grandpa always called us crazy for it! We have cinnamon rolls sometimes but it is hard for 2 people to eat an entire pack…. Unless Sami is with me, she helps!
Shelby is doing really, really well. She has a wonderful job on the med-surge floor, and Daniel treats her so, so well. We are all doing really well grandma, I can’t really complain. I feel very happy most of the time… but sometimes I do lose it. You were my second mother and my first angel; life is not the same without you.
You were such a strong, independent, free spirited woman and I am so proud to be able to be one of your grandbabies. I miss when you called me your grandbaby. Whenever I get into a rut I just remember that I am trying to live up to your standards grandma. I try my best every single day for you. I will never forget your grandma. I can’t wait until I can see you again grandma. Sometimes you visit me in my dreams and it makes me so happy. I truly from the bottom of my heart believe that you are there. You always were there grandma, for everything.
I love you so much Grandma, thank you for everything you have given me.
See you again,
Ky