“There isn’t enough room in your mind for both worry and faith. You must decide which one will live there.” “Our anxiety does not come from thinking about the future, but from wanting to control it.” “Worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn’t get you anywhere.” “Why worry? If you’ve done the very best you can, then worrying won’t make it any better.”
Lalala I love quotes, especially ones that speak to me so much. I worry, a lot. I wish I didn’t, but I do. I can keep a lot of it in, but sometimes I let it out. My dad just got his surgery yesterday and I am basically worrying about him all the time. He is in a lot of pain and I feel really bad. I wish I could take the pain from him. I know that it is just temporary, but it still stinks to have to see him go through what he is going through.
“I’m too busy working on my own grass to worry if yours is greener.”
I love that quote. So, I have been getting a lot stronger lately. This gym plan that I have myself on has me working super hard, and I love it! I can definitely see a difference in my body as well as feel a difference in my strength. One of the biggest things that I am proud of is that I can finally workout on the main level at my gym. My gym has two floors and I used to only be able to workout upstairs, but I have finally gotten over that fear. I was so worried that there was too many people watching me that I didn’t want to workout downstairs in front of everyone… which is crazy right?! Finally I got the mindset where I can say screw you. I am working on myself; and that is all that matters. I have good form, I know what I am doing, and I know I look good doing it. So rather than expecting people to be assuming the worst out of me, now I expect people to assume the best. I have the confidence to workout wherever I want now and for me, that is a HUGE step.
I took an awesome picture of my progress that I am probably going to put up soon, I was pretty happy with myself.
I have to wake up at 4:45 in the morning so I can take my dad’s blood pressure then give him his medicine (I feel like a nurse! I gotta hold down the fort since my Sissy isn't here). After that it is GYM TIME! I love going to the gym in the morning, I always have the place to MYSELF and it makes me feel so free. The best time of the day is gym time!!
I am really proud of myself too; I didn’t have any sweets today! I know tomorrow is going to be difficult because I am working with Rachel all day and she is going to probably make me cave and have ice cream, but that is OKAY. I was strong today and that is a good thing. Got to take it day by day, that is all you can do.
I didn’t turn in 2 assignments this week because I didn’t understand them at ALL. It isn’t good, I know. But I calculated my grade and neither one of the assignments would really affect my grade. Mom if you are reading this, I’m sorry… haha. By the way, I hate statistics… have I said that before? I have kinda been slacking off a little in school, thanks to the nice weather. It makes me want to go on adventures, not study... I gotta get out of that mindset.
Bubba, Tati, and I all went on a walk today. It was beautiful outside! This nice weather makes me so happy. I am excited for tomorrow, I think it is going to be a good day. Scratch that, I know it is going to be a good day!
I think in December I am going to get my Deviated Septum FIXED. What I would give to be able to go on a run or do all sorts of cardio without my nose deciding to Niagara Falls on me.
Bubba is snoring right now and it is probably one of the most adorable things ever.
Zeus, thank you for the body heat you are giving me, I love cuddling with you when it is cold in my room.